First…watch the video. And then…

Read the interview where she talks about breaking up with Joe Budden below:

Complex: You know Joe said the break-up is none of anyone’s business, etc. Were there multiple reasons or was there one big blowout?

Tahiry: Multiple reasons. He said it was nobody’s business? That’s what he said? ‘Cause he said so much. I don’t even know. At the end, he just lashed out all out of control.

Complex: What was the biggest deal-breaker for you?

Tahiry: I just feel like…I’m never going to speak bad about Joey. I love him. Five years. It was a long time. We were just growing apart. We were not in the same zip codes. I just didn’t feel like after five years we were building that foundation together. For a long time it was, “Joe, Joe, Tahiry, Tahiry.” When it was beneficial, it was Joe and Tahiry. But you know after five years, you’re supposed to feel like you’re building something. I didn’t feel like we were building anything.

Complex: Five years is a long time. Did marriage ever come up?

Tahiry: Of course! We discussed marriage. He’s a jokester so I remember one time I said to him, “Dude, what’s up? Where’s the ring?” I put the big Juicy keychain on and he was like, “We got to size it.” He said something like “I only have one album out, I need to put another three then think about marriage.” He says to me now, that it was a joke. But we’ve discussed marriage a few times.

Complex: Did you ever apply pressure on him to commit?

Tahiry: I never gave a date and time. I’m not that girl. I’m not going to apply that pressure ’cause I don’t want you to want to get married to me just because you know I want it. You’re going to marry me when you’re ready.

Complex: Right. So this year, a lot of people have said that you helped Joey be relevant again…

Tahiry: Really? [sarcastically]

Complex: Would you agree with that?

Tahiry: I won’t say that I made him more relevant. I think that people got to know him through his blogs. People got to know a rapper who was on his downtime, who was busy underground, who was busy releasing these digital albums and stuff. I think that the minute he started recording these blogs and then they see this girl and are like, “Oh my god,” they’re like, “Where has he been?” It’s like a combination of things—getting to know the fun side of him, or how humble and normal he is, and how crazy his Latina girlfriend is. So I think people think we’re relatable. I wouldn’t say that I made him relevant, per se.

Complex: Did you ever feel exploited?

Tahiry: That’s a good question. My mom thinks I was. I enjoyed it. I didn’t care. To me, the first time we went on this whole blog thing it was sort of like fun to him. He thought he was onto something. I think it caught us both by surprise. I enjoyed it and I wouldn’t change it.

Complex: So it was never like he was using you?

Tahiry: I don’t know his intentions. Again, he was my man, we were fine. We were in love. I think that sometimes he went overboard with certain things. Like discussing certain things that you don’t discuss online. But all in all, I enjoyed blogging. My life is an open book, I chose it that way, so I can’t be mad.

Complex: So, last week your Twitter account got hacked.

Tahiry: Holler!

Complex: There have been rumors that Joe was behind the hacking. He definitely did it?

Tahiry: Mmhm.

Complex: Seems a bit childish. Has he talked to you about that?

Tahiry: Again, a lot of it is out of control. He’s dealing with a lot of emotions. It’s five years so we’re both dealing with our emotions. You know if you’ve ever been hurt, or if you’ve ever lost something, or something’s just disappeared, or the rug was pulled from underneath you…if you don’t suffer, then you’ve never loved. People react to that suffering different and we’ve spoken after that. He’s apologized.

Complex: Now, what you just said, the rug was just kind of pulled from under him…

Tahiry: Listen! I said, “if the rugs been pulled from underneath”…I didn’t say if it was him or me! [laughs.]

Complex: Were you guys having problems? Or did it kind of blindside him?

Tahiry: Men and women again, are from different zip codes. You guys understand—well this is just my opinion—you guys don’t understand with words. You guys understand with actions. I think whatever happened between me and Joey, or the fact that the foundations weren’t as stable as they should be, it’s probably been happening as a woman, to me for a minute. Did we have happy moments? See the videos. We’ve had happy moments. By far, it was my best relationship. I’ve been in maybe two more. I don’t ever want to make him out to be a monster. But maybe it was a little shocking to him because, you know, everybody has their own brain, their own world going on.

Complex: What were some of your fondest memories with him? I know five years is a long time…

Tahiry: Yeah, it is tough…[breathes] you know, again, it’s the little things that guys fail to realize. Five years is a long time so it’s just the little things…You’re going make me cry and I have makeup on. My first surprise birthday party he gave me. I never had one of those. [Tears up] You know what, I couldn’t tell you about special times because I can’t even think right now, but with Joey, just…I don’t know how to explain it. It was just the carefreeness, the laughter…and it was just easy. Then it stopped being easy. [Sniffs] The little things I probably can’t forget. But I can’t sit around right now and pinpoint…maybe when he held my hand when I was really nervous for the KING shoot.

Complex: Didn’t mean to make you cry…

Tahiry: I need a fucking cigarette. This is the first time I cried, first time since the whole thing.

Complex: I hear you. Here’s a question—why do you think Joey has so many conflicts with rappers?

Tahiry: He has plenty! I don’t even know how to explain it. He’s very strategic. Joey’s a very, very, very smart individual, to the point where it was exhausting my brain. He knows how to connect those dots and make it for him. I would say that.

Complex: So there’s a method to his madness…

Tahiry: Madness? I would say maybe not in the beginning. Maybe things just happened. You know how the media is. You might just say one or two things and they make it into this big blowup. And then once you’re in the situation, he works it. So he’s very strategic. Very intelligent. Sometimes he’s not looking for it. It just happens and he’s ready. Quick on his toes.

Complex: Now TahiryTV…is that an extension of JoeBuddenTV?

Tahiry: Yes it is. It’s kind of like a mini-divorce.

Complex: How is that going to work?

Tahiry: We haven’t really been talking. We just had a great conversation last night. I was happy that we did. But eventually I would have to get my own website or we’ll see what happens. We haven’t gotten there yet. He’s been busy doing what he’s doing, I’m busy doing what I’m doing.

Complex: Are things civil with you guys now?

Tahiry: I really want them to be. Breakups shouldn’t be ugly and I’m trying for it not to be ugly. Like I stated, we had one conversation last night and I was happy that we did. And I don’t know because you’re dealing with so many emotions—Monday you’re fine, Wednesday you’re nasty, Thursday, Friday, you know? You’re dealing with different levels. And I can relate because I’ve done some crazy shit when I’m in love.

Complex: Like what? What was the craziest thing you did?

Tahiry: This is going to make me sound crazy. I pushed the door in.

Complex: Hmm, explain to me what happened.

Tahiry: Now we’re digging deep. Okay about two years ago we broke up for five months. This was the only breakup in five years until now. I was angry and I had to get some stuff and he wouldn’t open the door. I was already out, I was at my mom’s house. I needed some time, he needed some time. He wouldn’t open the door and of course I thought he was having a party—you know what kind of party. So I knock on the door repeatedly and he doesn’t open it. Then I just pushed it. It must have been a really weak door because I’m a little girl—I’m like really small. I walked in to him looking at me like, “You crazy bitch.” [Laughs.]

Complex: So he looked at you like,”What? I’m not doing anything”?

Tahiry: No, he was just like, “You broke the door.” I was like, “Call somebody, I’ll pay for it. Why didn’t you fucking open the door?” This is crazy, crazy, insane love shit.

I see said the blind man. And now…

Nothing. Wasn’t that interview enough?